Goodbye 2016. Good Riddance!
I usually look forward to the New Year, but not like this. 2016 has literally kicked my ass, and I’m counting the minutes til it’s history. What I find particularly interesting, is how many friends, family and even social media acquaintances are voicing similar sentiments. Personal issues, public concerns, the loss of so many iconic people – all of the above – it seems as if so many are ready to kick this year to the curb and are hoping that 2017 brings much needed changes or at minimum a restart.
I don’t want to rehash all the negativity of the year – all that has been taken or lost so I’m looking at the bright spots. And even though they may have been dampened by the negative, the bright shines through –
I feel as if I’m ‘getting there’ with the depression. I’m still not happy where I am, particularly with my medications, but I’m working on it. And I can say that it’s a HUGE improvement from where I’ve been so that is all progress! (The regimen is complicated and I think I have to accept the fact that just popping a single pill is in the past because it didn’t work.)
I’ve had people reach out to thank me for being open about my issues with Depression and for sharing both here and before, in Facebook posts. That has been such a gift to me. I never thought that what I was living with, struggling with would resonate with others. I only knew that it felt like the right time to be more open and honest about it all. Oh sure there are others who look at me as more ‘flawed’ or as if I’m fragile, but that’s ok. I’ll never regret my decision and I hope that in some small way my words continue to provide support(Selfishly, if for no other reason, it helps me).
Other than the big D, my health and the health of my family is all solid which is a huge blessing – HUGE – as this time last year it wasn’t. I’m hopeful that this will continue in the New Year.
My friendships have improved and have become more of a priority for me, I chalk a lot of this up to the fact that with my depression being more contained (controlled?) I’m able to reach out to those who are important to me and even meet new people and make new friends. This has brought me tremendous happiness all through the year and I’m truly grateful and excited to see how these continue to develop, improve and evolve in 2017.
I feel like I’m also ready to dig deeper and get more involved with some causes that are important to me – particularly in light of the political developments of the year, but also in other areas (such as being ad advocate for foster kids). I’ve started exploring some new avenues to get involved and look forward to digging in deeper shortly.
I still have many areas of my life to focus on, but I’m not overwhelmed by it all – at least not right now. I feel as if I’m ready to put some of those missing puzzle pieces back into play and I’m honestly excited about this.
So 2016, please leave with a whimper – you’ve done enough, taken enough. Enter gently 2017, we need some positive energy, some renewal, just some NEW to take the edge of the year that has been.